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A hundred days had made me older 
since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder 
and I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
They disappeared now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby 
but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby 
and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby 
but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me...

The miles just keep rolling 
as the people leave and way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated 
but I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby 
but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby 
and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby 
but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Everything I know, 
and anywhere I go 
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, 
when it's all said and done
it gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby 
but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby 
and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby 
but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me....
yea....
oh yea
oh...                            

Back to my routine here in KLIA… stil feels like i left something behind, too melow or what??

Never thought I would feel so different when I spent my break in Jakarta. The city it selves stil growing, but am not sure it’s on the right direction. For sure, I love my Jakarta inspite of the mess she carry for years. Streets of Jakarta is incredibely alive compare to Kuala Lumpur, thats for sure. With her "pedagang asongan, gelandangan, pak ogah, pengamen,etc".

For my two weeks in Jakarta, for a second I felt like I don’t belong here anymore. Am I going to make it if I going back to make my living in Jakarta? That’s a question that come across my mind.

Where you going to, Jakarta??

Akhirnya gw hirup juga udara jakarta dengan rasa nano2nya. Mudik kali ini memang tidak sesuai dengan yg direncanakan sebelumnya. Tapi, tetep aja ada rasa seneng banget bisa berada di jakarta tercintahh!!

Ada tersirat harapan kalo jakarta akan sedikit berubah. Mungkin sampah nya gak sedahsyat dulu lagi atau gelandangannya agak berkurang. Emang sih gw baru pergi sekitar 13 bulan, tapi boleh donk berharap.

Gw sampe cengkareng hari sabtu jam 5 sore. berhubung gak ada yg jemput gw naik Damri dengan membawa tas guede banget, hehehe… Untung aja udah terlatih waktu jadi kuli panggul di tanjung priok dulu… terus gw turun di kalibata dengan harapan akan mudah mendapat taksi, kebetulan di Damri ketemu mas2 baik hati yg baru pulang dinas dari Medan jd ada yg bantu ngangkatin tas gw. Terus gw juga dibantuin cari taksi n sekali lagingangkutin tas gw ke bagasi. Emang orang hidup gimana amalan, hehehe…

Treus aja gw meluncur melewati pasar minggu yg ternyata sedang dibangun terowongan, udah aja jadi macet abisss…. Waduhh… ini mah dari naik pesawat Kuala lumpur -Jakarta lebih lama naik taksinya…

Akhirnya sampe juga di rumah n gw keluarin duit 50 rebuan yg udah berubah dr terakhir gw di jakarta. Pas gw liat di argo, HAH!! tertulis 63000, GILA! Udah 2 kali lipatnya, waduhh, kota tercinta kenapa sangat berusaha untuk bikin gw jadi gak cinta lagi!!??? hiks hiks!!!

Dua hari dirumah melepas kangen dengan keluarga gw, terus gw pergi ke Depok niat mau ke money changer.. tanya2 sama keponakan gw ternyata tarif angkot ydah naik gak tanggung2 sampe 2 kali lipatnya. Gak lama muter2 ma angkot andalan tiba2 hidung gw meler and  gw dah batuk2 gak keruan. Waduh!! makin aja gw pengen mengutuk kota sejuta masalah ini…

Anyway, this is the city that made me the way i am now. The city that has a motto the stronger will win. The city where i’ve found a lot of love. The city where maybe my life will rest….

-Margonda, 03aug06-