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July 17th, 2008

Posted by keep-swimming in Uncategorized

udah lama juga gw gak nulis… baik di jurnal yang
sebelumnya selalu tak terlewatkan utk gw tulis. Mungkin karena gw merasa banyak
kekecewaan yang terlalu menyebalkan untuk ditulis… mungkin karena gw merasa
hidup gw gak terlalu menarik untuk suatu hari kubaca lagi..

sambil menghembuskan asap rokok yang akhir2 ini mulai ku
gemari… ku dengar alunan Procool Harum….

A WHITER SHADE OF PALE…

 We skipped a light fandango,

Turned cartwheels ‘cross the floor.

I was feeling kind of seasick,

But the crowd called out for more.

The room was humming harder,

As the ceiling flew away.

When we called out for another drink,

The waiter brought a tray.

 And so it was that later,

As the miller told his tale,

That her face at first just ghostly,

Turned a whiter shade of pale.

 

She said there is no reason,

And the truth is plain to see

That I wandered through my playing cards,

And would not let her be

One of sixteen vestal virgins

Who were leaving for the coast.

And although my eyes were open,

They might just as well have been closed.

 

And so it was later,

As the miller told his tale,

That her face at first just ghostly,

Turned a whiter shade of pale.

February 17th, 2008

if you forget me

Posted by keep-swimming in piece of soul

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

~~ Pablo Neruda~~

February 17th, 2008

A Song of Despair

Posted by keep-swimming in piece of soul


   

   
The memory of you emerges from the night around me.
The river mingles its stubborn lament with the sea.

Deserted like the dwarves at dawn.
It is the hour of departure, oh deserted one!

Cold flower heads are raining over my heart.
Oh pit of debris, fierce cave of the shipwrecked.

In you the wars and the flights accumulated.
From you the wings of the song birds rose.

You swallowed everything, like distance.
Like the sea, like time. In you everything sank!

It was the happy hour of assault and the kiss.
The hour of the spell that blazed like a lighthouse.

Pilot’s dread, fury of blind driver,
turbulent drunkenness of love, in you everything sank!

In the childhood of mist my soul, winged and wounded.
Lost discoverer, in you everything sank!

You girdled sorrow, you clung to desire,
sadness stunned you, in you everything sank!

I made the wall of shadow draw back,
beyond desire and act, I walked on.

Oh flesh, my own flesh, woman whom I loved and lost,
I summon you in the moist hour, I raise my song to you.

Like a jar you housed infinite tenderness.
and the infinite oblivion shattered you like a jar.

There was the black solitude of the islands,
and there, woman of love, your arms took me in.

There was thirst and hunger, and you were the fruit.
There were grief and ruins, and you were the miracle.

Ah woman, I do not know how you could contain me
in the earth of your soul, in the cross of your arms!

How terrible and brief my desire was to you!
How difficult and drunken, how tensed and avid.

Cemetery of kisses, there is still fire in your tombs,
still the fruited boughs burn, pecked at by birds.

Oh the bitten mouth, oh the kissed limbs,
oh the hungering teeth, oh the entwined bodies.

Oh the mad coupling of hope and force
in which we merged and despaired.

And the tenderness, light as water and as flour.
And the word scarcely begun on the lips.

This was my destiny and in it was my voyage of my longing,
and in it my longing fell, in you everything sank!

Oh pit of debris, everything fell into you,
what sorrow did you not express, in what sorrow are you not drowned!

From billow to billow you still called and sang.
Standing like a sailor in the prow of a vessel.

You still flowered in songs, you still brike the currents.
Oh pit of debris, open and bitter well.

Pale blind diver, luckless slinger,
lost discoverer, in you everything sank!

It is the hour of departure, the hard cold hour
which the night fastens to all the timetables.

The rustling belt of the sea girdles the shore.
Cold stars heave up, black birds migrate.

Deserted like the wharves at dawn.
Only tremulous shadow twists in my hands.

Oh farther than everything. Oh farther than everything.

It is the hour of departure. Oh abandoned one!

~~PABLO NERUDA~~
   
   

January 25th, 2008

DICARI PASANGAN BERNYALI UNTUK THE AMAZING RACE ASIA 3!!

Posted by keep-swimming in STORY YOU COULD TELL

Jika Anda sanggup berlomba melintasi
dunia hanya berbekal satu ransel tanpa
duit, kartu kredit, peta dan semua
alat komunikasi… punya nyali untuk
melakukan tantangan-tantangan yang
luar biasa ekstrim serta punya partner
yang OK untuk diajak berpetualang…
segera daftarkan tim Anda untuk
mengikuti kesempatan sekali seumur
hidup untuk berkeliling dunia gratis,
mengalami petualangan super seru serta
memenangkan berbagai hadiah menarik
dan hadiah utama sebesar USD 100.000
di The Amazing Race Asia 3!!!!

The Amazing Race Asia 3 adalah reality
show kompetisi terbesar dan terberat
saat ini yang akan membawa seluruh
pesertanya berlomba menyelesaikan
tantangan ekstrim sambil berkeliling
dunia dalam waktu kurang dari sebulan.
Jika Mardi (37) serta Marsio (35) yang
tambun bisa mencapai empat besar di
musim pertama; aktris dan model
Kinaryosih bisa menyeberangi gedung
pencakar langit dengan seutas tali dan
Adrian yang memiliki cacat pendengaran
berhasil menyelesaikan berbagai
tantangan ekstrim bersama partnernya
di musim kedua, maka Anda pun tentu
bisa menjajal tantangan dan
petualangan ini!!!!

Syaratnya untuk mengikutinya cukup
mudah:
· Masing-masing tim terdiri
atas dua orang yang memiliki hubungan
pribadi (keluarga, teman, kekasih, dll)
· Masing-masing peserta HARUS
berusia 21 ke atas dan memiliki SIM
internasional, paspor dan dokumen
perjalanan yang berlaku.
· Semua peserta HARUS memiliki
kemampuan berbicara bahasa Inggris
yang baik.
· Peserta harus sedang bekerja
atau bermukim di Asia (kecuali Timur
Tengah, Australia dan Selandia Baru).

Jika syarat tersebut
sudah terpenuhi, segera isi formulir
pendaftaran yang dapat langsung di-
download di www.axn-asia.com.
Pendaftaran dimulai tanggal 23 Januari
2008 pukul 18:00 waktu Singapura.
Jangan lupa, pastikan formulir
pendaftaran beserta video audisi
berdurasi tiga (3) menit dikirimkan ke
alamat yang tertera di website paling
lambat tanggal 25 Februari 2008 pukul
18:00 waktu Singapura atau 17:00 WIB.

Saksikan The Amazing Race Asia 2 tiap
Kamis pukul 20:00 WIB di AXN untuk
mengetahui aksi petualangan para
peserta di musim kedua. Untuk
mengetahui info lebih lanjut, klik
saja www.axn-asia.com. Masih belum
puas? Kirimkan pertanyaan Anda ke:
Amazing_Race_Asia@axn-asia.com .

Rgrds
Dian Safitri (0811 852 004)
Mudya (0812 820 2691)
RedWhite Communication Solutions

January 13th, 2008

dua lapan

Posted by keep-swimming in STORY YOU COULD TELL

Besok I’ll be 28… so what??
Well, gw pernah planning pada angka 28 ini gw sudah memiliki toko buku. Gw udah punya novel best seller, hahaha… dan yang pasti gw pengennya pada umur segini sudah menikah… pengennya…
Tapi, biasalah… si nasib neh senengnya kan bikin orang kecele. Dan gw dah berkali-kali dibikin kecele, hehehe… mang aja gw nya yang seringnya rada bloon dalam menyikapi hidup, but, aren’t we all?? hehehe…
Sekarang, seperti tahun2 sebelumnya, yang bisa gw lakukan adalah banyak2 bersyukur atas rahmat yang sudah diberikan Yang Maha Kuasa buat gw, bersyukur karena gw masih dicintai oleh2 orang2 disekitar gw, bersykur gw masih dikasih sehat utk selalu beribadah kepada-Nya.
Gw juga tetap berharap akan ada yang kasih gw berlian sebelum gw menjelang 29, hahaha… tetep optimis lahh… gw yakin kok dia akhirnya akan sadar kalo ga rugi ngasih gw berlian…insyaAllah
Gw berharap di angka 28 ini gw akan tetep dikasih hal-hal baik dalam hidup gw, tetep dikasih kepala yang dingin dalam menyikapi sesuatu, diberikan kecerdasan dalam menyikapi laki2 yang datang dalam hidup gw, diberikan keteguhan dalam memegang prinsip hidup, diberikan kemudahan dalam emncari sesuap nasi dan segenggam berlian, dan yang pasti selalu diberikan kesempatan seluas-luasnya untuk menyebar kebaikan dalam dunia-Nya, amin

Depok, 13 Jan 08

January 8th, 2008

…ketika senja tak lagi berwarna jingga…

Posted by keep-swimming in piece of soul

Dia sangat menyukai senja, khususnya senja dengan warna jingga. Dia bisa betah duduk berlama-lama menikmati keindahannya. Ketika permainan warna begitu mempesona pada pergantian siang  ke malam hari. Warna biru memudar menjadi ungu muda, warna kuning berubah ke orange terus berubah ke warna jingga hingga ke warna magis yang selalu ditunggu2nya, jingga kemerahan…
Tapi beberapa hari ini ada yang membuat dia begitu murung. Dia tak lagi menjumpai jingga di senja yang tetap hadir walaupun sudah menjelang musim hujan. Warna jingga seperti larut dalam keresahan hatinya. Dia tak lagi bisa menatap senja karena tak lagi berwarna jingga.
Ingin sekali dia menepis keresahan hatinya yang kini telah begitu meracuni hatinya sampai dia tak lagi bisa menikmati senja yang dulu begitu didambanya.
Akankah jingga kembali mewarnai senjanya??
supaya aku pun dapat kembali menikamati senja dengan warna jingga kemerahan itu… supaya dapat ku bertemu kekasihku disaat matahari bertemu sang rembulan…

Depok, 8 jan 08

January 2nd, 2008

…suatu ketika…

Posted by keep-swimming in piece of soul

Percaya… haruskah hilang dari hati??
ketika dihadapkan pada ketidaksempurnaan seorang insan..
Lelah… haruskah terus mendera diri??
ketika terus terseret keraguan akan cinta..
Menyerah… haruskah mengaku kalah??
ketika rasa tak juga bisa menyatu..

Saat ini aku hanya ingin berhenti berfikir
Saat ini aku hanya ingin berbaring
Saat ini aku hanya ingin tertidur
tanpa harus bermimpi…

kelapa 2, 02jan08
ketika dia minta introspeksi diri selama 2 bln..

December 9th, 2007

EVERYTHING

Posted by keep-swimming in sounds of my soul

I can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withhold like it’s going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby and you’ve never met anyone
who is as negative as I am sometimes

I am the wisest woman you’ve ever met.
I am the kindest soul with whom you’ve connected.
I have the bravest heart that you’ve ever seen
And you’ve never met anyone
Who’s as positive as I am sometimes.

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I’m ashamed
There’s not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here

I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive-aggressiveness can be devastating
I’m terrified and mistrusting
And you’ve never met anyone as,
As closed down as I am sometimes.

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I’m ashamed
There’s not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here

What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go

I’m the funniest woman you’ve ever known.
I am the dullest woman you’ve ever known.
I’m the most gorgeous woman you’ve ever known
And you’ve never met anyone as, as everything as I am sometimes.

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I’m ashamed
There’s not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here

And you’re still here
And you’re still here…

BY: Alannis Morisette

November 1st, 2007

Demi Tuhanmu..

Posted by keep-swimming in piece of soul

Demi matahari, dan cahayanya di pagi hari,
Demi bulan bila ia mengiringi,
Demi siang bila ia menampakkannya.
Demi malam bila ia menutupinya.
Demi langit serta pembinaannya.
Demi bumi serta penghamparannya.
Demi sukma dan penyempurnaannya,
maka Allah mengilhamkan kepada jiwa itu kebaikan dan keburukan
beruntunglah orang yang menyucikannya, merugilah orang yang mengotorinya

Q.S Asy Syams

~~ abis dapet training ESQ neh, jadi rindu banget sama Allah~~

August 3rd, 2007

beku!!

Posted by keep-swimming in piece of soul

Aku masih berdiri disini

Dengan tubuh yang mulai kaku

Angin dingin bertiup lirih

Waktu pun seperti enggan melaju

 

Apa yang kutunggu?

Setelah kau katakan jangan menunggumu

Kau akan pergi bersama ombak menderu

Tak kau dengar seruku!

 

Jangan tinggalkan aku nanti darahku jadi beku *)

Bunga-bunga rindupun jadi layu

Lalu gugur satu-satu

 

Ingin kurobek kenangan

Yang sering datang menghampiri

Kutepis lalu kutendang

Tapi tak juga mau pergi

 

Masih kucari sososkmu

Saat melangkah pergi bersama hujan, gelap
dan dinginnya malam

Punggungmu hilang di keramaian

Aku lunglai sendiriran

 

*) dipetik dari puisi “Aku Binatang Jalang”
by Chairil Anwar

~~august 07~~


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